Monday, June 11, 2007

Babies

Baby Dave

It's always good to get back to the "babies." Riverside is definitely not a home without a cat. Therefore, dun dun dun, I think it's time we get a new kitty that will transport with us to and fro. We'll wait for my niece to arrive to help us pick out our new family member. She loves cats so. I think we'll look for a little female--the kid and I have already been thinking of names. Pixie Belle is at the top of our list. We'll see what comes of that.

I'm terribly irritable today. Had lots of errands to run; the kid had his braces updated (whatever they do), grocery shopping, got mom's hair cut and then she had a doctor's appoint this afternoon. I told the doctor about her latest confusion, which seems to be progressing. All signs are towards a mini stroke or the onset of dementia. Neither really treatable except keeping her blood pressure down, which it is, keeping her blood thinned with an aspirin a day, which she takes and a new prescription for her cholesterol which has been elevated. We will start the new Rx tomorrow in the hopes that it will slow down the dementia process. She has been confused since I arrived home. She has no concept of time so she comes upstairs several times a day asking me when I'm leaving again. I try and explain things to her, but at this point, I don't know if she understands what I'm trying to tell her. Her vocabulary is dwindling and it is becoming harder for me to figure out what she is trying to say. It's beginning to irritate her. At this point, I truly don't know if I'm more annoyed or worried. Isn't that horrible? I feel guilty when I do become annoyed and then I just worry. I just keep this pit in my stomach whenever I'm dealing with it. I know it will only get worse and the thought just kills me. There were different circumstances with my father when his dementia progressed. The kids were terribly young, he was a horrible "patient" and my brother was in a nursing home at the time. That made the decision easier as to where he was to live because my brother was there with him. Guess it all worked out in the end. It's hell watching parents age and having the tables turned on you. You become the parent as they regress. She tells me I'm her mother. Poor mom. Just breaks my heart.

We're having chicken pot pie for dinner. The hub is on his way home from Memphis for the day. Tonight, I will continue my Thank You Card Swap. I've finished four out of ten. Yahoo. So much fun, well kinda--once you sit down and actually do it! Right?

There's a fly buzzing around here, been here since yesterday. I want to find the little sh*$#@t and just smash it to bitzy.

12 comments:

Farmgirl Cyn said...

I am there right now, with my step-dad. it is not dementia, or a stroke, but the pressing of a tumor on the spinal cord, which is now getting so large that it is affecting his mind. He is in a hospice home, but we have no idea how long he has. It has been hell. I feel your pain.

Susie said...

I do understand how you feel with your Mom's dementia. I've dealt with that in several loved ones and it's never easy. You'll be in my prayers.
xo

Artsy said...

Rosa, I've done the dementia thing too with a loved one..and your feelings are totally normal. It IS a mixture of fear and annoyance. It can get very frustrating because our dear ones were once vibrant and coherent. As they change it becomes more frightening and frustrating. Its so hard.

You're in my thoughts and prayers.

Beth said...

Oh Rosie,,I am so sorry. I think about you and your Mom alot. I know I will be where you are one day too. I don't know what to say except,,Hang in there! Can't wait to see what Kitty you get. Mucho Hugs to you!!! Hope to see you real soon!!!
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Rosa's Yummy Yums said...

Dave is a very cute cat! I love this picture...

I'm looking forwards to seeing pictures of your future kitty!

Reagarding your mother, I'm sure it isn't very funny. It must be very upsetting...

LisaOceandreamer said...

I absolutely understand how you feel Rosa...the guilt that comes with times you feel annoyed and then all the worry. I was never prepared to be my parents parent and yet it was a role I had to take on. You need to have moments you can vent either the frustration or the worry or both!

Getting a new kitty will be fun, you're so right about a home needs a cat! Your nieces visit will be a joy!

I hope you're having a better day today!
XOXO

Janet said...

I'm so sad to hear your mom is getting worse. I'm sure it can't be easy and of course there are times when you get annoyed but it comes through that you love your mom and that's what counts. She may not be able to voice it to you but I'm sure she appreciates all you do for her. It may be on some level that isn't visible but it's there.

"Early Bird" said...

LoL at the last bit...Clarence just demolished a moth and my house while he was trying to get to it...
Praying for your Mama and strength and peace for your heart.
(((hugs)))

Vallen said...

When did they hand out the instructions on this taking care of the parent thing? Guess I wasn't in attendance that day. I thought they just lived forever. They shouldn't just spring it on us like this. You know?

Peggy said...

my neighbor Fran has dementia and is on a medication that helps slow down her memory loss and confusion. It really helps or at least I have noticed a difference but its $230 for a month supply

Mrs. Staggs said...

I'm thinking about you. I wish I had the words to make it better, but I don't. It's an awful thing to have to go through. I hope the new meds will help. Nothing seems to help with the angst we feel about what's best for the ones we love though. It hardly seems fair that life should take such a turn just when people seem to be getting the hang of living it. Maybe one day we'll all know the reasons why. We just have to love each other through it all, I guess.
Anyhow, I'm truly here to listen, if you need an ear.
Take care.

The Woman said...

HUGS

Did you get the fly?

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